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“We have been lost to each other for so long. My name means nothing to you. My memory is dust. This is not your fault, or mine. The chain connecting mother to daughter was broken and the word passed to the keeping of men, who had no way of knowing.” - From the Book, The Red Tent by Anita Diamant
It’s easy for me to pinpoint the exact moment when the path of The Sacred Feminine chose me. (I use the words Sacred Feminine and Divine Feminine interchangeably)
I can tell you exactly where I was - at my home in Livingston, NJ.
I can tell you exactly what I was doing - Having a mystical experience in a Breathwork Session.
I can tell you exactly what happened - A breathtakingly gorgeous woman, dressed in a silver-white robe, adorned with the most beautiful jewels & a golden crown descended from the sky and started to walk towards me. Her enormous white wings flapped gently behind her as she stopped a mere inches away from my face.
She smiled and spoke one sentence before everything turned into pure white-blissful light.
“I am going to enter you now.”
What I did not know at the time was that the woman was the Egyptian Goddess Isis. The One Who is Called Goddess of Women. The Divine Mother.
What I also didn’t know was that vision would change the trajectory of my life. But I do know now that this is the way of The Divine Mother.
When you are ready, in a true time-honored way Isis (or another Ascended Master) will beckon you through your dreams or meditation to initiate you into the Sacred Feminine.
As I shared in my last post, I had been drinking the Kool-Aid of our Patriarchal World and was on an express train to what I thought will be the top of the mountain that would finally prove that I am worthy, that I am good enough and that I too belong.
None of that was happening in spite of my professional and personal success. In fact, the more success I had, the more miserable I felt. In hindsight, I was searching for a feeling called “home” and like many women, I too thought that it existed outside of me.
That moment when Isis claimed me as her daughter created a domino effect that turned my attention inward and instead of climbing the mountain, I started the Journey Home to my(Self).
This was 4 years ago, but if I am being totally honest, (and I know this only now), when I look back, my entire life has been filled with moments that were nudging me in the direction of the Sacred Feminine. But I did not truly understand what it meant.
And maybe you feel the same way.
What is Sacred Feminine?
The other day I was having some fun experimenting with Chat GPT. I thought lemme see if this AI thing gets it. I typed in the chat bar - “Define Sacred Feminine Consciousness in easy-to-understand words.”
I was very surprised to see that it got it right:
Sacred Feminine Consciousness refers to a deep and profound understanding and connection with the feminine energy and wisdom that resides within individuals and the world.
It encompasses recognizing and honoring the inherent power, intuition, nurturing qualities, and creativity associated with the feminine aspect of existence.
Not bad huh?
In simple terms, Sacred Feminine Consciousness is
Embracing and valuing the qualities traditionally associated with women, such as empathy, compassion, intuition, and interconnectedness.
It involves recognizing the importance of balance between masculine and feminine energies {resting and working, allowing & doing, outer action and inner work}
Honoring the unique gifts that the feminine aspect brings to personal growth, relationships, and the overall well-being of individuals and society.
So we can say that it’s a return to the old ways. To how the world was;
Before Healers and Seers were turned into “Witches” with pointy noses and hats
Before women’s names were erased from the “her”story including religious texts.
Before the Red Tents were pulled apart, the temples were broken down and sisters turned against sisters.
Before all of this (and more), women used to gather in circles. We passed stories and traditions. We shared our visions and wisdom.
We honored our monthly cycles knowing that rest is part of our cyclical nature.
We paid much attention to our intuition and to the wisdom of the older women who had seen so many cycles of birth and death.
We celebrated together with rituals and ceremonies that honored the elements, the Moon & the Sun & Mother Gaia.
We understood that we are all connected beautifully in this tapestry of life and the communal nature of our society is what holds us together.
I believe this is why many of us are being tapped on the shoulder by the Sacred Feminine Consciousness. Because deep down inside, we know how to do this. We have forgotten and thus we are lost and starved for it. It’s like our outside no longer matches with our inside and we are so very aware of it.
In the ancient Mystery Schools of Egypt, the initiated went through challenging tasks before they were ordained as Priests and Priestesses and welcomed into the mysteries of Isis.
In the modern day, our life is an initiation. The world around us is our Mystery School. Sacred Feminine isn’t about wearing flowy gowns, sitting in meditation all day, creating beautiful altars, and performing elaborate Full Moon Rituals. Although I have nothing against any of it.
In fact, let me simplify it for you even more.
Sacred Feminine Consciousness is about one thing and one thing only - HIGHER LOVE.
Noone tells is better than Whitney Houston:
🎵Think about it, there must be a higher love
Down in the heart or hidden in the stars above
Without it, life is wasted time
Look inside your heart, and I'll look inside mine
Things look so bad everywhere
In this whole world, what is fair?
We walk the line and try to see
Falling behind in what could be, oh
Bring me a higher love
Bring me a higher love, oh
Bring me a higher love 🎵
Listen to this song here.
Getting to this Higher Love takes time. It takes un-becoming. It takes un-learning. It takes healing. Sometimes it takes therapy, periods of solitude, and a lot of love and support.
A Circle of Women gathered alongside you, holding your hand, seeing you as whole, and loving you up helps.
So we can create that chain again. Mother to Daughter. Sister to Sister. With love and reverence for each other.
With so much ❤️,
Deepshikha
P.S. - Listing a few books in the comments below that helped me reclaim the connection to my feminine nature. Would love to hear your recommendations too, if any.
P.P.S - I’ll be on holiday next week so there won’t be a newsletter. See you the week of August 28th!
What is Sacred Feminine?
I believe Books can be very activating in helping us remember the sacred feminine. These have been like a lighthouse on my journey - Love Warrior by Glennon Doyle, Witch by Lisa Lister, Power Vs Force by David Hawkins, The Red Tent by Anita Diamant, The Sophia Code by Kiara Ra (not really a book but a key code activation), Mary Magdalene Revealed by Meggan Watterson, Wild Mercy by Mirabai Starr, The Heroine's Journey by Maureen Murdock